This weekend at church, my pastor made a statement that spurred a million other thoughts in my spaghetti brain. He said, “no one can ruin your life without your permission.”
Now, in context, he was definitely talking about taking responsibility for your own choices and not playing the victim. In my context, however, my brain immediately clicked on this thought….
God cannot “ruin” my life unless I let Him.
I also thought immediately of the Jeff Johnson that I came to love deeply at a Falls Creek youth camp week years ago. You probably know the one, it goes like this:
Ruin my life, the plans that I’ve made.
Ruin desires for my own selfish gain.
Destroy the idols that have taken your place
Until its you alone I live for. You alone I live for!
What an amazing, exhilarating, scary, humbling, oh-my-goodness thought!
What if I am the only person truly standing in the way of God having his way with me. Of totally wrecking the plans I have made for myself in my limited, finite ability and knowledge. Instead He is so patient to await me realizing that my plans are okay, but His plans are exceedingly, abundantly, beyond,beyond what I could ever hope for or imagine. his plans are perfect.
So, like the prophet Isaiah, I hear you Lord asking “who will go for us?” (Isaiah 6:8). And my answer is, “here I am Lord! Send me.”